Gandharvika
My dear Guru Maharaja,
Please accept my respectful obeisances.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada!
All glories to You – His eternal servant!
On this auspicious day of Your Vyasa-puja I am humbly praying for Your mercy. It has been five years from Your departure from this material world and Your attaining the real world across the Viraja River.
You were always ready to deliver Krsna consciousness without discrimination and kindly blessed me with Your association. By Your causeless mercy You enabled me to crawl on the path of devotional service. I miss Your guidance through e-mails, which easily solved my ever increasing and never ending dilemmas. I am amazed how direct and lovingly You were instructing me about the highest standard and absolute knowledge. Your strong preaching is a source of inspiration for me because only through Your realisations can I access to drops of nectar that is waiting for me in distant future. Your strong voice could sober and satisfy my mind. I miss Your jolly mood, which always attracted me. I feel Your presence whenever I think of You or seek shelter at Your lotus feet. I have firm faith that You are patiently guiding me and will eventually save me from this ocean of nescience.
Many things have happened since You are not physically looking after me. I got older, finished two diplomas, started to work and got married twice (legal and Vedic marriage with the same person). You had realised that there is nothing material that is enjoyable and that the real happiness is always ultimately in connection with Krsna. With Your serious disease that made Your life difficult and painful You never lost Your focus what You want to achieve in life – please Your eternal spiritual master. I admire Your firm dedication to Srila Prabhupada and His mission. You were empowered by Your spiritual master because You were always executing service to Him. When I look inside my heart I see so many obstacles, which defect my devotional service. I get easily bewildered with this material world. I am still very attached to my husband, family and work, but I know that my attachments cannot help me at the end of my life. It will be only between You, Krsna and me.
I have failed to get to know You in such short time as I would desire but it was certainly enough that my heart got captured and I became indebted to You. You told us that India played a big role in moulding the development of the maturity of Your Krsna consciousness. At an early age of 27 You accepted sannyasa. This is how old my body is at the moment. I cannot imagine how empowered You were at such an early age and You remained committed to Your spiritual master till Your last breaths. When I look at the past year I can find many occasions, where I wasted so much time. In my conditioned position I tend to forget that my only business here is to serve Krsna through You. I miss Your direct guidance that could sober me in my spiritual life to become stricter in my immature practice of sadhana-bhakti.
Thank You very much for everything!
Your insignificant servant
Gandharvika dasi
Please accept my respectful obeisances.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada!
All glories to You – His eternal servant!
On this auspicious day of Your Vyasa-puja I am humbly praying for Your mercy. It has been five years from Your departure from this material world and Your attaining the real world across the Viraja River.
You were always ready to deliver Krsna consciousness without discrimination and kindly blessed me with Your association. By Your causeless mercy You enabled me to crawl on the path of devotional service. I miss Your guidance through e-mails, which easily solved my ever increasing and never ending dilemmas. I am amazed how direct and lovingly You were instructing me about the highest standard and absolute knowledge. Your strong preaching is a source of inspiration for me because only through Your realisations can I access to drops of nectar that is waiting for me in distant future. Your strong voice could sober and satisfy my mind. I miss Your jolly mood, which always attracted me. I feel Your presence whenever I think of You or seek shelter at Your lotus feet. I have firm faith that You are patiently guiding me and will eventually save me from this ocean of nescience.
Many things have happened since You are not physically looking after me. I got older, finished two diplomas, started to work and got married twice (legal and Vedic marriage with the same person). You had realised that there is nothing material that is enjoyable and that the real happiness is always ultimately in connection with Krsna. With Your serious disease that made Your life difficult and painful You never lost Your focus what You want to achieve in life – please Your eternal spiritual master. I admire Your firm dedication to Srila Prabhupada and His mission. You were empowered by Your spiritual master because You were always executing service to Him. When I look inside my heart I see so many obstacles, which defect my devotional service. I get easily bewildered with this material world. I am still very attached to my husband, family and work, but I know that my attachments cannot help me at the end of my life. It will be only between You, Krsna and me.
I have failed to get to know You in such short time as I would desire but it was certainly enough that my heart got captured and I became indebted to You. You told us that India played a big role in moulding the development of the maturity of Your Krsna consciousness. At an early age of 27 You accepted sannyasa. This is how old my body is at the moment. I cannot imagine how empowered You were at such an early age and You remained committed to Your spiritual master till Your last breaths. When I look at the past year I can find many occasions, where I wasted so much time. In my conditioned position I tend to forget that my only business here is to serve Krsna through You. I miss Your direct guidance that could sober me in my spiritual life to become stricter in my immature practice of sadhana-bhakti.
Thank You very much for everything!
Your insignificant servant
Gandharvika dasi
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